people like catzee can motivate me in a few minutes.. for hours.

why can’t I motivate myself like this?
why do I always need people to pull me into things.. like going to study?

Finally I find some motivation to stay in Aachen but I am needed in Amsterdam now. Or very soon.. and I cannot leave here without this §”$%* bachelors degree.
Fuck myself for being such a indecisive and lazy person.. lazy? maybe just unmotivated.

It’s such a beautiful time at the moment, summer at its finest and everything looks good I am just fucking with myself. :(

life sucks big deal at the moment..