so I have been depressed most of my conscious life, it seems.
I have been through a rollercoaster of new emotions recently since I started treatment but one thing I did not prepare for… the loneliness.

Now that I am no longer busy with myself all the time.. how is it possible to feel so lonely? Why are the days so damn long? Never-ending episodes of loneliness and I need to find someone to talk or I will explode.

or maybe.. I just have to find ways to deal with myself.. being alone

edit: thanks to my favorite therapist the answer seems to be habituation